Needs to Talk to Someone!

Hi! 

I found out last year that i am hiv positive. My family knows about my current situation but I need people who are dealing with the same thing. Someone who fully understands what i'm going through right now.

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Email 527: Anxious with the HIV Result

Hi pozzie!

Can you enlighten me on this one?

Nagpatest kasi ako sa RITM 6 weeks after exposure (oral sex exposure lang) and it was non-reactive. Pero ngayon. after 4 months. napansin ko biglang pumapayat ata ako. I do not know if this is stress-induced (lack of sleep,stress) or sa maling test results. I am panicking right now...again.

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Email 526: Worried About Medicines

sir pozzie 20 yrs old lang po ako at member ng philhealth ng halos magdadalwang bwan pa lamang posible po ba ako makakuha ng gamot ng libre ?

deror

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Email 525: Having Anxiety Attacks

Hi pozziepinoy,

I've been doing a lot of reading because of this anxiety attacks and then i came across to your blog. And I've read few of the stories that was mailed to you. And i just wanna share my story so here it goes.

So I've been using this app and madami akong nakilala. Then i met this guy last january lang. Last friday of january and we did the "thing". It was my first time to have unprotected sex and i was the top. And i "enter" him twice and i "unleashed" it inside. Then I've met three other guys from february. (Sorry po kung maxado akong maharot xD) yung isa is twice kame ngkita, i was the top and we did it with condoms. The other one, more on oral (no penetrations). Then the last one, im the top and with condom. 

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Email 524: Worried Guy!

hi! good day!  actually hirap ako pano to umpisahan... share ko na lang muna story ko.... may anxiety po ako for how many  years na. may mga panic attacks ako from time to time...  lalo na pag naiisip ko yung mga itsura ng mga nakasex ko na unprotected..... may nakasex kasi ako from QC na binutas nya ang comdom sadya.. tapos a day after he keeps on texting na "may problema ako" pero d nya naman sinasabi kung ano..... pero after nun wala namang  lumabas na  symptoms of  acute hiv etc. at d na kami nagkatext pa ulit.  nangyari yan 2 years ago.

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Email 523: On Oral Sex

Hello pozziepinoy. 

Im Don, so its been almost 4 months since I had sex with a man I met online. We just did oral and didn't let ourselves be exposed in each other's cum. So just this week (after 4 months of doing that), I discovered a white penile discharge. I immediately went to a doctor and they diagnosed me with a UTI. I immediately felt better after 24 hours of medication (no penile discharge). Its my second day of medication  
today and I am almost perfectly fine. Do you think that I have HIV? I saw a lot of articles in the net saying that the presence of HIV can induce UTI. Internet articles also stated that  
it is rare for young men to have UTI. I am so paranoid now. I don't want to have HIV. Thanks for the reply.

Don

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Email 522: Penile Discharge

Hi. Good evening.

You can call me john. 21 years old. I am a bit sexually active, but I frequently practice safe sex using a condom. But honestly, I tried doing bareback less than 10 times. I have never been tested for hiv due to I am afraid for any consequences. 

And today, something happened. There is this yellow green discharge from my penis and when I urinate, there is mild hot feeling on the head of my penis. This is the first time for it to happened. I had bareback yesterday to be honest. I am a top.

I really panicked and I am very nervous right now. I am discreet and no one knows especially my sexual activities. I hope you can help me. I am afraid if my parents would find out.

thanks and hoping for your reply.

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My HIV Test Experience

Dear Mr.Pozziepinoy,

I had my hiv-test done yesterday 24March 2014 at RITM Satellite Clinic, I'm the guy from the middle east asking for your assistance with the E-mail story of 454, finally hinarap ko na rin ang FEAR ko...I just came from XXX last 23May, My original plan is to be tested that same day pero I decided to take a rest muna, saka parang natatakot na ako I went to the nearest church kung san ako nag-stay ngayn, I pray hard and ask for forgiveness, asking our Lord God for a miracle kasi alam mo sa sarili mo na may ginawa ka(unprotected sex), na may possibility na ma-infect ka.

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Email 521: Having "Symptoms"

good eve po' ask q lng may mga alergy po ako sa balat last year pa ng nov. d po buh kaya sintomas ito ng hiv.? kasi ung frnd q na puti dyan sa manila (wla na ngayon kac nasa canada na) pinatulan nya ako nag suck lng cya sa ari'q' 'ung umuwi ako ng province nilagnat ako at nag pa tingin sa doctor sabi may dengue ako nakuha q daw sa manila kac ung pag travel pa lng nilagnat na ako at yong lagnat ang dahilan bkit ako umuwi ng probinsya' nawala ang dengue kasi bnigyan ako ni doc ng gamot at ngayon po ds year nagkasakit ako parang bukol na may nana sa singit ng legs q d ako nka pasok ng skol almost a wek po'nagpa doc'ako ne resita sa akin antibacterial at topical cream gumaling cya ngayon naman alergy parang pimples na pula at makati pag gabi.... don q na alala ung cnabi ng puti sa akin late q na nalaman HIV patient pala un nag sbi cya akin kac na ospital daw cya sa manila ung time na un don ako natatakot sa nalalaman q sa sinabi ni puti sa akin' as of now d pa ako nagpa hiv test nasa province ako malapit sa akn ang cebu san ako pwedi magpa test maganda sana pag sa manila kac parang privacy at maganda anp serbisyo nila'sa ngayon po d ako mapanatag kasi may alergy pa ako until ngayon gus2 q magpa test'tlaga sana libre po ang tretment ng hiv patient plz po 2longan nyo po ako  studyante pa po ako ngayon may mision pa ako sa pamilya q'sana ma2longan nyo po ako i ned advice po' antayin q po ung respones nyo po salamat ulit

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Life is Beautiful!

I had been meaning to articulate in writing how did my "hiv test experience" go but the emotional surge had been overwhelming such that almost always, I can't seem to find the right words to depict the "highest-rating-primetime-drama" of my life.

To begin with, I have always been informed about anything the tabloids and blogs have to offer. I make sure to read all sorts of social and socio-political issues hovering this planet almost everyday. Hence, I am not totally unaware of HIV. In fact, I had been updated with the soaring statistics the DOH has been publishing every month.

Through the years, I had been hearing and seeing campaigns on HIV testing, which, among others, encourage people to know their "status". Sadly, I didn't have the audacity to do it. More often, I found myself making justifications just not to succumb to what the advocacies were asking us to do. I told myself that I didn't need that for I always practice safe sex; or that condom has always been my best friend, thus I have nothing to be worried about; or my sexual partners were not that numerous for me to get paranoid about my "status".

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My PLHIV Story: HIV Stops With Me!

This is the first time im sharing my story to anyone, there are only two members of my family who knew about my case and sufferings, my aunts from my father side, even my parents are not aware of my case, i had plans to go abroad to seek a better future, i dont know but at the back of my mind there is this thinking that i might be positive of HIV then, until the time of my medical i was still very nervous, the more i became nervous when it took me a day to receive a call from my agency to confirm my tests, it took actually almost two days for them to call me, just to inform me that i have to go back to the diagnostic center for rechecking of HIV test, there i almost lost everything in my mind, i didnt tell anyone whats happening to me, i was just quiet, then i went to clinic for verification i  
was so ashamed to enter the clinic for the second time, because i know there will be speculations about me the moment i sit on that chair, it was still good that the tech who took my sample was very optimistic in saying, "i should not worry because most of their clients turns negative", that helped me a lot, i  still have hope that it will then turn negative,  
he even told me the result will be confidential i will be the one to open the envelope and read it myself, (3 weeks later, year 2012). I got the result i was looking at his desk he has around 3-4 envelops in his shelf, he took the first envelop its already opened I was dismayed, but the most heart breaking news is that i am HIV positive, i went out the clinic  
hearing nothing , i dont even know if i checked the road before passing the next thing i know i was walking like DEAD. until i get the guts to tell to my aunt through messages i  didn't answer her calls. i dont know if can tell it personally to her, honestly i asked jesus why me? many times that night, i was feeling OK i didnt knew this is happening to me, ive been to a lot of churches praying for a miracle that i hope on my next test it will  
turn negative, just for me not to lose hope. I got tested the second time, but the second test still took 3 weeks to release the result, i didnt go to the clinic to get my results i knew then that it is again positive. Since the day I've found out im positive, i promised to myself not to have sex to anyone anymore not until GOD will permit to do so, until when? I don't know only God knows.

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Thank You!

Good day sir!

I just want to THANK YOU again dahil po sa inyo, nawala na po worries ko. Pareho po kami NONREACTIVE sa test na partner ko. Thankful po ako nang sobra dahil nakita ko ang site ninyo sa net at madami po kami natutunan ng partner ko.

More power po sa inyo sir and may God bless you always.

marco

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Email 520: On Blood Bags for Transfusion

Dear Pozzie,

I need blood transfusions due to Anemia, TB and AIDS. Everytime I go to SLH I always require a minimum of 5 bags sometimes to 12 bags of blood transfused as my hemoglobin level dips really low. Someone has told me that there may be a limit to blood transfusions done. Is this true? I am scared to ask my physician. If it is, then I am done!

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Email 519: Follow Up Question on PhilHealth

Hello.

This is in regards to "Email 518: Issue with PhilHealth Documents".  Just to clarify the second option you've given, do you mean I'll just register as a new member directly to PhilHealth without letting them know of my previous contributions? or will I tell them that I'll be converting from being an employed member to an individually paying member?

Thank you so much for your immediate response. I just feel too pressured right now since I'll be back again to my treatment hub for another refill.

God bless.

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Email 518: Issue with PhilHealth Documents

Hello, I'm currently under maintenance after being diagnosed positive last January. I'm frustrated right now because RITM Alabang, which is my treatment hub, requires my philhealth documents including my certificate of contribution which should be requested from my company. However, my company won't release it without any medical reason and I don't want them to know what my current condition is. What should I do? Are there  
any option for me? I badly need your immediate response. Thank you.

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Email 517: Free for Foreigners?

Hi Dear,

I just learned about this website by google, hope this email is still working.

I am a positive foreigner in manila. I really wanna ask if treatment for foreigner is also free ?

I don't know what to do right now, so hopeless, I hope you would help me.

T.T

A sad person 

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Thank You!

Dear PozziePinoy:

I am your newest follower.  Your blog is an inspiring and intelligent read and I am thankful I discovered it.  You are heaven-sent especially for people now struggling with the dreaded human immunodeficiency virus, which many young men and women in the Philippine Islands today have not taken so seriously.  I am a closeted gay and I have opted to remain sexually inactive for many years now because of the repercussions of engaging in sex with persons of the same orientation.  I hope more and more islanders, homosexual or straight, will discover your site and learn more about HIV, gain insights into the life-stories of people living with the virus, and help disseminate information on the virus and on the available treatments. 

I shall support this blog as long as I am alive and as I can.

Sincerely,

The Gonograd Resident Blog

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Email 516: Do What You Think is Right!

Hey, pozziepinoy

First of, thank you so much for setting up this very helpful and informative blog, surely people like me full of questions found sanctuary in this archive of informations you have patiently organized.

Anyways, i just found out my partner is HIV+ and immediately had my testing luckily I"m negative....we never had sex for 2 months since I'm away for a seminar.....Definitely while i'm away, he fooled around unprotected...didn't bother to bring it up cause he was so devastated and don't want to add insult to injury with his current condition.

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Email 515: Worried School Teacher

Good day, im planning to apply and work as a school teacher my restictions po ba yon kong Hiv positive tulad ko  hndi kaba tatanggapin kong positive ka ? or kahit anung work dito sa pilipinas required ba ung HiV test mahihirapan po ba kaming maghanap ng work even dito sa pilipinas?

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Email 514: Dilemma with the 3-in-1 Pill

Hi Pozziepinoy.

I started take this meds since it replaced the cocktail ARV I using before. But thing is the first day I used it I had an hour of I think having a mild heart attack, I was struggling a bit to breathe and my left arm hurts a bit. I mentioned this to the doctor in my hub (PGH) but she said to try to continue using it for 2 weeks. My dilemma is if I took this again tonight or for a week I might actually die because of the meds and not because of HIV. And thing is the doctor doesn't seem to worry. Kapag ako namatay mumultuhin ko talaga sila.

Would you know a doctor who I could consult? And sabi rin kasi nila, wala na daw yung cocktail, talagang yung 3-1 na lang ang meron na gamut?

Thank you,
XXX

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