Email 524: Worried Guy!

Posted by Pozziepinoy on 8:23 AM

hi! good day!  actually hirap ako pano to umpisahan... share ko na lang muna story ko.... may anxiety po ako for how many  years na. may mga panic attacks ako from time to time...  lalo na pag naiisip ko yung mga itsura ng mga nakasex ko na unprotected..... may nakasex kasi ako from QC na binutas nya ang comdom sadya.. tapos a day after he keeps on texting na "may problema ako" pero d nya naman sinasabi kung ano..... pero after nun wala namang  lumabas na  symptoms of  acute hiv etc. at d na kami nagkatext pa ulit.  nangyari yan 2 years ago.

Ngayon po may partner ako for almost 2 years na... happy naman kami... wala naman kaming problema maliban na lang kung inaatake ako ng anxiety.... kung dati parang once a week lang, lately naging daily na sya... lalo na pag naiisip ko na  magkaroon ng HIV.  Simula nung araw2x akong inaatake ng anxiety nagpacheck up ako general checkup from ortho to IM to check kung may malalang sakit ba talaga ako. nagpacheck ako sa ortho kasi sumasakit ang hips ko pero bago ako nagpacheck sa ortho nagpaER ako for same reason.  
Ang nakita ng doctor sa er is my scolio daw ako so kinabukasan bumalik ako sa ortho tocheck if need ba ng theraphy kasi ayaw ko nga magkasakit... takot ako....  nung check ng ortho normal naman daw sabi nya "baka may viral infection ka sir?" syempre kinabahan ako after that kasi mahirap magkaroon ng ganung sakit dito kasi maraming makitid ang isip... mapanghusga... kaya after ko sa kanya dumiritso ako sa sa IM. bago sya nagsalita inunahan ko na sya sa pagsabi ng medical history ko na may anxiety ako.. blah blah... ganito ang mga sakit ko... ang sabi nya "natural lang yang nararamdaman mo.. pero for the peace of your mind papageneral chckup ka" . pumayag ako and the results are normal... pero after that nagkaroon ako joint pain at muscle pain na tumagal ng mga two weeks.. pero ngayon meron pa rin pero d naman ganun kasakit na kasi binigyan naman ako ng mga gamot at tama na ang tulog ko.. nabasa ko din kasi na ang muscle at joint pains are physical manefistation ng anxiety... ang worry ko lang is ginising ako ng sakit ng joint at muscle pains... naiiyak na lang ako pag ganun ang gising ko kasi feeling ko hiv na to... after taking meds, nangangati na lang po ako hindi ko alam kung side effect ba to ng gamot ng  
binigay sakin ng doctor namumula na lang sya sobrang kati.. pero wala naman syang tumutubo tulad ng nakikita ko sa pix da internet.

please po gusto ko talaga magpa HIV TEST.. pero natatakot ako kasi si partner baka nahawaan ko... at ayaw nya din magpatest... ayaw ko po mamatay sa pneumonia or any complications....  please po. i need your inputs kung ano ang gagawin. alam ko si hiv hindi nakakamatay pag naagapan.. ang worry ko lang is pano ko to tanggapin at tangappin ni partner. possible po ba na hiv postive na ako... wala naman po akong naramdaman na lagnat or any symptoms as of now.... im scared po....

jerry30

POZZIEPINOY’S RESPONSE

Hi Jerry30.

Thank you for your email. Thank you for sharing your story with me and my readers.

It is unfortunate that some people would spread the virus or not tell their partners that they have it. That is he reason why we should really be very vigilant especially when having sex with people we hardly know. That is also the reason why having sex with a stranger under the influence of alcohol or drugs should be avoided as our judgement will be clouded.

Based on your story, it is really a must for you to take the HIV test. Like what I always tell my readers here, don't think anymore but just decide to do it. Over thinking begets more worries, which leads to enabling the fear from within to not take the first step. I know you have thought about it a thousand times, and got more and more scared to do it. But if not for you, do it also for your partner who may have been infected.

HIV has non specific symptoms, so don't wait for them. If you think you have been exposed, go to the nearest HIV testing center and get tested. Don't waste your time in researching for symptoms. Don't waste your time in thinking. Just get tested. Trust me, it will be the greatest decision that you will ever make in your life.

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I hope I was able to answer your concerns. Feel free to email me again if you have other questions.

Stay healthy,
Pozziepinoy






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