PLHIV Story: Acceptance

Posted by Pozziepinoy on 3:57 PM


Good day po.. Just want to share my story for being hiv++...
Nag start ito b4 pa po mag habagat.. Ang dami kasi nag iba sa katawan ko.. may mga lumabas ng rashes and ung biglang pagbagsak ng katawan ko... Sobrang dami kasi nakapansin kasi medyo chubby type ako.. nagiging reason ko na lang is nag dadiet ako... Peron even in my self sobrang nagtataka na ako kasi sobrang ang dami talagang nagbago.. b4 naman wala naman ako problema sa pagkain ko... tapos bigla bigla nawawalan na lang ako ng gana... Dun na ako nagstart na halos araw araw naghahanap ako ng sagot sa internet kung ano ang mga lumabas na sintomas sa taong may HIV ...

Nagkaron ng ako ng lakas ng loob to get hiv test after MMK episode pulang laso... Pero b4 ill go to RITM Satellite tinanggap ko na sa sarili ko kung ano ang magiging result.. if negative start new life.. must be aware sa mga sakit na nakukuha and bonus sa sarili ko.. f positive naman ako same with thing.. acceptance para di na ako masaktan pa kung ano man ang lalabas ng resulta...
Dumating ako b4 lunch time... Nagpalipas oras muna ako sa Nita's Restaurant din nung nag 1PM bumalik na ako... may mga tao sa loob... dn pagdating ko hinanap ko agad si Lean dn kinausap ako ni Phil.. after nung pag uusap namin may mga sinagutan ako na papel... dn dumating ung nagkacouncil... dun nya lahat pinaliwanag sakin kung ano ang sakit na hiv/aids.. kung pano ito nakukuha at pano maiiwasan.. dn after counciling kinuhaan na ako ng dugo... after pagkuha ng dugo pinababalik ako after 3 hours.. dn balik naman ulit ako sa Nita's Restaurant... palipas oras... dn sabay na ng meryenda... after 3 hours balik na ako.. sobrang dami namin nag aantay ng result.. pero in my self d pa dn ako kinabahan kasi andito na kako ako to find kung ano status ko...  sa 2 unang test is non reactive ako pero pagdating sa HIV test reactive ako... simple smile lang ang ibinigay ko dun sa nag council sakin... sabi ko acceptance po... andito ako to know kung ano status ko.. para hindi na kako lumala pa kung ano man ang mga nararamdaman ko... December 6, 2012 nangyari un.. dn december 10... pumunta naman ako ng RITM alabang for my treatment.. ako lahat.. ayaw ko muna ipaalam sa family ko kung ano ang lagay ko pero minsan nahihirapan ako kasi ako yung walang asawa sa family namin.. ang hirap lang kasi kapag humingi sila d ako pwede tumanggi in terms of money kasi ako na lang ang inaasahan nila... dun ako medyo nahihirapan kasi pag sila kako may problema damay ako pero sa problema ko solo ako... hanggang dito na lang po.... Maraming salamat po....


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Good day.. Just want to share my story for being hiv positive.

It started before the monsoon rains. A lot of changes happened in my body. I had rashes and sudden weight loss. People noticed it because I was a bit chubby. I made an excuse that I was on a diet. But even I was wondering why because of the many changes. Before I didn’t have problems with eating. Then, suddenly I would lose my appetite. That’s when I started surfing the net to find the answers as to what are the symptoms of HIV.

I got the courage to take the HIV test after the MMK episode “Pulang laso”. But even before I went to RITm Satellite I already accepted the result of the test... if it is negative, then start a new life, and I must be aware of the illneses that I will get... and if positive, the same thing... I accepted it so I won’t get hurt anymore whatever the result will be.

I arrived before lunch time. I killed time in Nita’s Restaurant and at 1pm, I came back and there were people inside and then I looked for Lean and Phil also talked to me. Then I filled out the form that they handed, then the counselor came. He explained what HIV and AIDS are, how it can be contracted and how it can be avoided. Then after the counseling they drew blood from me, then was made to come back after 3 hours. I went back to Nita’s Restaurant to kill time again and had snacks. After 3 hours I came back to the clinic and there were a lot of people waiting for the result. But I wasn’t nervous at all because I was already there to find my status. Then they called me. In the first 2 tests I was non reactive but when it comes to the HIV test, I was reactive. I just smiled to the person who counseled me. I said I already accepted so that I won’t feel bad anymore.

That happened on December 6, 2012 and in December 10, I went to RITM in Alabang for my treatment. I did everything on my own. I don’t want to tell my family yet about my status but sometimes I feel the burden because I am the only one who isn’t married yet. It is hard because when my family asks money from me , I can’t say no because I am the only one that they lean on. That’s what is bothering me because if my family has a problem, I am involved but with my current problem, I am on my own.

Till the. Thank you so much.

XXX




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